The bitch became a carebear

img_4456Pregnant at 18, it was a big deal to me, I thought my life was over, I was a heavy drinker, I didn’t so much cry because of the pregnancy but because I couldn’t drink or have fun anymore. Yes, I cried like a baby. I used to make fun of the girls in high school that purposely got pregnant once or twice in a row at such a young age. Before my children I was a complete B*^&% (the B Word) I was selfish, I was mean, I  was a  risk taker. But all that stuff is for another day. Looking back on the process of becoming who I am now was difficult.

How much blood?

img_4450I love my job! I’m actually at work as I type. I have encountered many people here and my job isn’t easy. I personally believe I should get paid more to do this since I’m dealing and handling all types of diseases STD’s, HIV, Hepatitis, and handling not only blood but piss and crap (sometimes crap). I have also learned not all pee is yellow it can come in many different colors like red, green or brown!! YES!! I SAID GREEN! The best part of my job is the patients; you love some and you hate some! I feel that the younger generation (NOT CHILDREN) are easier to work with than the older ones. The ones I love are the ones that come in all laid back, have juicy veins, the ones that feel NO PAIN, the ones that really don’t care what or how you do it as long as you take what is needed when needed which is very few by the way! Almost everyone is concerned about how much blood? or when can I go back to work? or if they are disabled because they lost 4 mLs of blood! LOL. You would think I’m joking but I had a patient once ask if he could take one of the vials home because he felt that I had taken too much blood, then again this patient was also those patients that want to get tested for every test in the world to make sure they are super healthy. So what he wanted to do with his blood only god knows… Maybe drink it back to remake more blood because I took too much? ( I’m only saying that because every time I got a small cut as a child I thought that if I sucked the blood until it stopped I would just be recycling and not losing anything) IDK all I know is that my job is fun and interesting. I once had a patient that told me he WAS (retired) in the CIA, and then I was scared because I had told him my name.  My skills get tested on a regular basis I never know what I’m going to get either good veins, bad veins, or no veins. Yes some people have illness that make their veins sort of diminish but that doesn’t mean they don’t have veins just means that they will probably be a “hard stick” that’s what we call the difficult veins. How many times has my patience been tested? MANY! how many times do I feel like patients ask inappropriate questions? All the time! Like how old are you? Can you speak english? Really can I speak english? after I said Good morning to you?!! Are your kids from the same father?. OH wait here’s a funny one ” can I use my arm after this?” that question didn’t really bother me but just made me laugh!! Back to ” are your kids from the same father?” First of all why does it matter? are you providing for them? are you the father? Like why people? I’m not perfect but really????? Like I said I love my job, I love the ups and the down.. you can consider the downs the times that I felt that I could just slap the s#$% out of some people. Other than that I have enjoyed working as a phlebotomist, and NO we don’t take your blood for fun it’s more of a paid hobby just kidding!!! So don’t hate your phlebotomist for doing their job. OH and another thing we are not vampires 🙂

Somewhat “LUCKY”

IMG_6839 To think I took advantage of school growing up. I regret it for the sake of my children but for the sake of my teenager years I don’t. But I truly believe that we should be taught at a young age that school isn’t free after you turn 18 unless your some genius or lucky, clearly I’m neither. Im pretty sure they let me know at some point but I was never in school so clearly I don’t remember. Now, your probably thinking this girl didn’t graduate high school but I sure did! 2012 with my class and I was never in school. One of my friends who goes by the name of “Eagle claws” went to school EVERYDAY didn’t graduate(btw I was always pressuring him to skip with me) ! So maybe I should consider myself a little lucky, and now I’m drowning in debt because I want to be nurse! I wish i was a genius….

The Beginning

Who am I? well I don’t have much of a nick name except for loca, fea, zae, and pinocchio, but I prefer Zola ( thats my name). I’m a full-time mommy, phlebotomist, student, and oh girlfriend ( to my boyfriend of course).  Being 24 and trying to grow up has been probably one of the most difficult things to do because at times I still think I’m 18. Then i have a rude wake up call ” Hello Zola your 24! get it together!!” I have been adulting for about 6 years now probably since my mother told me I couldn’t live with her anymore. Having my son at 18 made growing up go by even faster! I love my children and having them and trying to be like all the other mommies made me want to go to school make the best of any situation but also putting me in the center for judgment by my family and of course society. Why? because Im 24 with two children, no degree, no husband just my boyfriend ( fyi he is the father of both of my children) I always get asked that. I try not to get offended but then again I have the right to RIGHT?! Thats all for now folks!  check back for my next blog as I get off topic often!